Live your life the way you think is right not what other people tell U is right

Three Months

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 15:46:26 GMT

And I'm still sober.

Happy New Year

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 15:56:05 GMT

Wow 07 what a great year so many friends so many first its been so AMAZERING!!!lol.
I just want to say thanks to all the people that have made this year so wonderful you truly have mad it a great one. There have been many rough times, but I have made it through them with all of you. Just thanks for everything and hope that 08 is even better then 07 Happy New Year Guys.

Christmas!!!!!

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 20:36:36 GMT

It doesn’t feel like Christmas WTF!!! I don’t know if its because I haven’t been watching TV ,or the weather I don’t know. Even at the Mall with all their decorations and holy golly music its still doesn’t feel like it….=(
WHERE ARE YOU CHRISTMAS!!!!!

All out there!!!!

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 03:25:25 GMT

I really like you, yes I do, Its not hard to see.
That when I’m with you in your arms, there’s no place I would rather be.

For you have bewitched me, yes its true, you have cast a spell on me, but its alright I wont fight, for I like what its has done to me.

Its given me this feeling that I can not explain. I can't explain it with these words, for I might sound insane. But I like you, yes I do, its obvious to see, for you have done something to me little boy, but its quite alright with me…..

-Benjamin

Happy Thanksgiving

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 02:00:36 GMT

Well it’s another on Lame Thanksgiving, but I'm still good. I have a lot to be thankful for yes sir. I have a good family whom I LOVE.I Love My parents they are so good to me I need to tell them how much I really a appreciate them. My bother who is so amazing. I don't know where I would be if it wasn't for him. My friends I love you all. You have really helped me out this year just getting out and starting this whole thing its so crazy lol. And thanks to a special someone, thank you for being there for me I really, really, care for you, and appreciate you so much. I'm just thankful for everything right now, so I hope you all have/had a great THANKSGIVING!!!!

-BENANA

I'm not Crazy!!!

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 07:56:24 GMT

About those last two posts hmm yeah one is really sad and one is really happy. I sound like I’m bipolar lol. I swear I’m not.

Benjamiiiin!!!!

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 18:40:05 GMT

I love the way He says my name Benjamiiiiiinn!!!
I love it hahah. Everytime He does it I just laugh because its so cute……

My Birthday

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 06:53:45 GMT

Yesterday was my Birthday a happy time right, but No it was probably one of the worsted days I have ever had. And all I wanted was to see him, but I didn’t even get to do that. I just feel like crying. I did a lot of that today, but I’m probably going to go do that later, but for now I have to study.

I'll do you GOOD!!!

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 23:07:16 GMT

Comment and I'll...
1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
r7. In return, you must post this in your LJ. ♥

Never Again.....^_^

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 07:13:29 GMT

Haha I’m not doing that again.
Well I was Tommy’s and Carlos’s Halloween/Birthday party.
I just wanted to have fun and get something off my mind, so I had way to much to drink haha. I have never had that much to drink before I don’t remember much about that night, but what I was about to hear BLEW my MIND!!!!

Apparently I had made out with two guys
OMG I have never done that before,outing them in front of their friends. But they were coming out already, so it wasn’t that big of deal. On of the guys I had noticed the whole night, but for some reason I didn’t pay attention to him because I didn’t think he would like me. But little did I know that he tried all night to get my attention. I was so oblivious to him that I kind of made him upset. But ever since then I can’t stop smiling haha Damn Ben you are Crazy…..lol

I'm Sorry

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 06:45:28 GMT

I’m sorry I did this to you. I never wanted it to be like this.
I have done to someone what I have never wanted some to have to go through.
The feeling of having everything right there in the palms of your hands. You can feel it, taste it, love it, but it is taken away with no answers, no reason, no consolation, to why it happened. It’s a feeling I know to well, so why would I put someone though this. I don’t know I didn’t see it. I was just caught up in the moment that I didn’t notice what I was doing. I’m sorry for what I have done I know I have said that already, but I truly am….

I’m sorry

Different Beginnings

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 07:33:33 GMT

I know your growing every day , every hour, every minuet, I’m growing too, but I’m not at the point where you are. You are just about to start your life. I’m just starting mine as well, we’re just at different beginnings. I want to be there for you, but I know at some point I must say good bye. But unlit that day comes I’m going to love you, going to show you what no one has shown you before, to be there to support you, to tell you everything is going to be alright in those times where nothing seems to be going right. I know that it will come to an end, I just have to accept that. But like the old proverb goes “ It is better to loved and lost, then to never have loved at all.”

Hair Today Gone Tomorrow .....v_v

Thu, 14 Jun 2007 17:41:48 GMT

OMFG!!!....I think I’m losing my hair FUCK!!! Hahaha every time I take a shower all this hair comes out...There seems to be no change in the thickness of my hair, or anything out of the ordinary other than it falling out. But my brother is experiencing the same symptom, so I’m not to worried about it....

This year WOW!!!

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 06:53:54 GMT

I’m just going to start off with the way this year has been going ok, and away we go haha.
Wow!! that’s all I can say about this year, it has been AMAZING it truly has. This year has brought so many happy moments that just thinking about them makes me tear up a little. I have made so many great friends that I am very thankful for. Having them really pulled me out of the darkest part of my life. So may first this year. I got my fist Kiss haha that is so sad I must say, and my fist time getting drunk haha that was very interesting. I just started dating, and my fist kind of ‘thing‘ was not very productive, but if anything came out of it, it was a good learning experience. But most importantly it brought me, and my brother closer together. I love him, so much, and he has helped me in so many ways that I hate to think of where I would be if I didn‘t have him here. This year is like a rebirth for me,to stop being afraid of living,to stop being afraid of taking chances because they might not come out my way. To just be happy that I took that chance, and if it didn't’ work, well at lest I gave it a try. I’m still learning a lot, but I’m learning quickly, everyday is a new experience, everyday is a new begging, so I’m just going to try and enjoy it.

checking it out

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 05:22:41 GMT

Just seeing what this does not sure what to do here so yeah lol